Painful

today as usual went to school @ 9am. ended @ 1pm and den took bus 12 with Samuel and David. quite happy though. but still feeling abit upset la. trying to think about happy things and talk more to Alicia lo. she knew about my decision le.

today the teacher gave me the ans for my AA1 den he came to borrow from me lo. if i havent made tt decision, i will be super happy. but @ this moment, im only feeling sad and blanked. cos dun wish to think about it. but the harder i try to forget, the more i remember it. i suddenly realise this is a wrong start of me being into it. no matter how many things he had borrowed from me, it will still come back to me eventually. he wont owe me anything. meaning we wont have any ending ba. haahaa maybe i've said it too kua zhang ba but its jus how im feeling now lo.